=) + =(

The more you thought that everything is under control.

In fact, they are getting out of control.

I can feel it, it's so unsecure but there is nothing I can do about it.

Am I really have to bow in front of fate and let everything be what it should be? I don't think so. But from what I experience, it's like I have to.

After years, I'm losing myself more and more, I became just everyone.

I miss my home,

I miss the day I spending whole afternoon

just to drink coffee and watching the rain scene

at the backyards of my home.

What the hell is wrong with my life,

I don't get it, It's like I'm spending the unstoppable time on NOTHING.

God knows, I think He is the only one knows.

信封。

手中握着这一封信，面前放着一盒火柴，

希望它可以帮我将一切都让你知道。

我神志清醒，但是却还不能...

不...是不愿意放弃...

我打开信封，从新阅读过一遍内容好让向来细心的你不会看见我有任何错别字。

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给亲爱的你，

宝贝还好吗？

记得这一个地方，曾经回响着我们顽固的爱意，更残余着爱情火般燃烧过的灰烬。

踏进这里这一刻，眼神往下绕了一阵，不敢抬头直看过去的影子。

进了去，

抬头往前踏几步，

吹来一阵熟悉的海风，不同的是温度。

想起过去只要有你在身旁，

不管晚风有没有把你身体带来一阵颤抖，

我都会忽略自己，上前去为你问候，为你送怀，

再轻的风来袭都不会犹豫。

天知道看着你的微笑会带给我多少温暖，也

没有人知道我能有那么的爱你。

走上沙滩旁的砖石道，

经过第二颗树的右边的第二块砖，有你眼泪的痕迹。

我记得，有一次你捏一捏了我的脸，

要我上前去追，你不小心跌伤了。

原本哭笑不得的我，

马上为你的伤轻轻的吹走沙尘，

慢慢的为你脸庞抹走泪痕，

疼惜的看着你那溢泪的眼，说，别哭了。

那一晚，为了你膝盖手忙脚乱的敷药，

一边看着你泪流，一边绞尽脑汁的逗你笑。

那时的你一定不知道，我有多么后悔没追上去，

说不定还有能拉住你的机会。

距离前面有十米的亭子，是我们第一次拥抱，

你就这样，靠近了我的心跳。

我愣住在那里，

思绪不争气的想回到过去，

一阵冷风袭击又把我带回现实。

往前慢慢的走，

眼睛不听话的慢慢看着，

你常走在砖石道的左边，

因为有我在右边牵着你，

你总是像个孩子，

把脚步都踏在格子里，

有时还拉着我的手前后甩，

想用行动告诉周围的人你有个男人，专属的那一种。

走到砖石道尽头，有个小型游乐场，

我总是坐在那里的石椅，

看着你，闹着要我推一推坐在秋千上的你。

我们常在那里笑呵呵的说对方有多天真，

其实你知道工作劳累的我，只有那时能看到我笑。

我也总是唠叨着你，

别常常到游乐场旁的小茶室点冰饮喝，

你就什么也不管，扁了嘴再说，

到最后，你的微笑总是用我点来的少冰可乐换来。

你又很多奇怪又可爱的习惯，

还记得我们早上起床刷牙时都要依你所说的，

一起含着牙刷谈话，

结果我常常都闹得哭笑不得，

因为你我都听不懂对方说什么。

你喜欢粉红色，但是你爱我喜欢的蓝色。

你很挑食，爱耍脾气，

所以我得常常对你罗嗦，你也常常耍赖。

这，是我们的爱情。

但当医生宣布的结果之后，

一切将会被归类为回忆时，

我知道，什么都回味不来了。

那时，我跪在你面前，不同的是，这不是定下终身的动作。

而是，你躺在病床上，不甘的是，为什么受尽折磨得是你。

我望着你，但是我的眼神却是一篇空洞。

有史以来，在你面前，我就是你的支柱，所以我从不掉下泪。

此刻，我开始犹豫。

你离开的前几分钟，

你没有像小说里的爱情故事，告诉了我毕生都不该知道的秘密，

也没有像电影的剧情里，说了一些让我惊天动地的句节。

一旦鼻酸袭来，我该死的都给自己忍下每一颗泪滴。

我们沉默了好久，

你才开口说，

我的男人啊，来，扮个我最爱的鬼脸给我看。

我照办了，此刻，发现自己差一点就崩溃惨了。

你露出了开心的样子，缺少了的却是笑声。

你的表情参杂着微笑和微微哭泣的抽蓄，说

这一生，我只有当你新娘的愿望，但是，看来一点都不简单呢...对不起...

一向来，你为了我劳碌奔波，一个男人，不管再强大,我知道，你都会累...

但是我一直都有很乖，对吧亲爱的？

所以这次轮到你要听我的了，要记得让别人代替我来陪伴你，

我很自私，如果你也不愿意放手的话，我怕我会很顽固的赖在你的每一寸记忆里。

别让我心疼好不好？呜....呜........

我开始无言，心中有千万话语却在此时冻结，

只为了把眼泪坚持到最后，心中却是无尽的嘶喊。

你的声音开始颤抖哽咽，眼泪开始决堤，眼眶泛红，说道，

宝贝很怕，也很不舍得你，但是宝贝不能不接受事实...

你开始无声的大哭，眼泪如细小河流一般在你脸颊流下，湿透我抚着你脸的手掌。

你接着一直中断的声音说道，

我...我知道亲爱的...也很坚强...但是现...现在可...可不可以别再忍......

我终于明白，有时候，表达自己撕心裂肺的情感也是一种给对方的安慰，

我放下最后防线，放声在你面前像个小孩一样的大哭，

接着我俯身抱紧你，再抱紧你，

我从未像那时这样紧紧抱着你，

就好像可以抱着你的灵魂，不让你离开一样，

天知道我就快疯了。

我知道，我的眼泪，

我的哭声的确会让你心疼，

不过我打从心底知道，你也想看到

这一切就是我对你多么不舍，多么疼爱的证据。

看着你强忍疼痛的微笑，布满泪痕的脸颊，慢慢放松，慢慢平静，

我知道，你想努力最后一次，不让你的男人，我，心碎你床前,

你呼吸开始缓慢, 我拥抱得越来越不舍，我开始边哭边说，

不对，应该是边哭边喊着，

我不准你离开我，就让我自私一次好不好！多一天好不好...不不....三天！就三天！

啊.....咳咳....呜...........呃....吼啊！！

我的哭声像野兽鸣泣凄惨一般，徘徊在你最后呆在的房间里。

其实，我想表达的

是

我明知是有了你才觉得自己真正的活过，

但是我就是爱你爱到我不想自拔！

亲爱的，

另一边的天空或许不一样，但是你永远将埋在我心里，

或许会新的爱情降临，但是，我绝对已经不能像爱你一样，去爱另一个人，

原谅我，宝贝。

笔于顽固的我，

2010年11月9日

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眼泪又开始往下掉，差点扑灭火柴头上那微弱的火焰，

我有点自言自语的说，一定要送到你身边....一定要....

空白 - Julio

可惜时间它以我们为敌。

没有证据的爱情，不代表空白。

虽然长时间没花心思在这里，不过有一首好歌让我不得不分享出来。

简洁的歌词，利用那不想被任何事情过滤的嗓音，嘶喊。

加油，黄苠晋。

我并不是故意

故意说不爱你

只是在人群之中 失去勇气

爱并不是秘密

我却把你埋在地底

流言蜚语 我还想不理

站在你对面的我 多么想紧紧抱着你

可惜时间它与我们为敌

不是我不是不是我不想说出来

我想我想我想大声地说出来

我想我想我想我只想你明白

我的爱 的存在

不会是空白

爱并不是秘密

我却把你埋在地底

流言蜚语 我好像不理

虽然我和你之间 仿佛隔着一道墙壁

我爱你 不管世界与我为敌

不是我不是不是我不想说出来

我想我想我想大声地说出来

我想我想我想我只想你明白

我的爱 的存在

不会是空白

不是我不是不是我不想说出来

我想我想我想大声地说出来

我想我想我想我只想你明白

我的爱 的存在

不会是空白。

Bz Bz Bz, friends friends friends =D

Muahahaha~ I have all these readers from overseas~ =D

Love u guys gao gao~ xD

...recently I'm just too busy but not lazy to update my blog =(

I've prepared so so much material

and idea to update but what do I really need is time!

Not really satisfy with my job life recently,

but I still hope there is a changes after this month.

Had a lots of dream these nights...

I saw myself living the life that I planned, and failed to live in real.

I drop my tears thou it is just a dream, tears of happiness.

When my eyes realize it's time to see the real world,

God knows how bad I refuse to wake up from it.

Anyway, at least I felt it, for a moment.

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Found these picture in my somewhere documents...

Haha~ all of you guys above =) I didn't forget bout you, you and you~

I'm really really extremely busy ='( and trust me, I hate to be that busy as well.

I don't have enuf time to post all of the pictures and then I picked some of the best! =D

1st picture

Mr Ho Jia Wei

my ex-college mate~ xD

He is one of the best buddy in college.

We took that picture after our very 1st presentation =)

Second picture

Mr Elnes Wayne

My best best buddy that always jokes !

One of my most helpful and kind friend =D

Third picture

Mr kai

One of the serious late night and coffee kaki like ME!

xD my ex housemate. took the pic when webbie~

Fourth picture

Ms Lingg(yea it's double g =D)

She is really one of the sweetest smile girl I ever met that love to make "peace" sign.

Took the webbie pic when going to fong gong~!

Fifth picture

Ms Pei Syuen

She is a very very cute girl =)

Took the picture when I'm staying in my hometown.

and i remember she got a doll named fluffy~ =D right syuen?

Sorry for this very short post, when I cleaned my mess in job.

I promise that I will be back.

Give me some time, everyone. =D

Take 3

3

2

1

It's 3:58 am.

Nite everyone.

♫♪ Here come the second episode of working momment[In english]

Hi,Everyone~!*Chewing food* =)

Mum...Nyam...Um....

Done~

Bah~

I'm sure that you guys can noticed the changes of my blog right?

haha, love this theme!♥

Just left some part of the theme havent be done, felt like something is lacking or missing .

Any idea?

Shout it right at the cbox or comment~!

I'll give credit to anyone who gave a brilliant idea =D

My working place~ View from technical counter, messy huh? (o囧o)

I'm always complaining "Aiyaya~ Someone tidy up the cable that always almost stumble me?"

xD hehe~

Cornetto~ xD Full of Choco blast! But it brings sore throat T.T

Hate that I love you xDDD haha

A staff from Pj bought us a plastic bag that full of ice cream and I finished 3 !!

I'm....Ice-cream TERMINATOR!!! *evil laughs* MUAHAHa

This is a picture took by ma handphone~ The picture shown below is an uncle de laptop

The laptop was like jamming since the windows start...and unlimited error message pop out!

O.O opps~ *holding laugh* xD

SONIC GEAR SECTION

xD

Setup by one of sonic gear supplier~

quite nice isn't it =D

And I simply love the speakers in the second row~♥

Darky from action IT and Izumi from one It team!

Testing projector with 1 peace and 1 impolite pose~ haha

-----------------------------*Ignore me*----------------------------

Now, It's time for Darky and Patrick to have a competition~

Darky's Acer Aspire 4920G(White colour)

VS

Patrick Asus bla bla model~*ngek ngek*(Glossy black)

Someone might be asking?

Is this what are u doing everyday in ur working place?

Nop~ xD This idea happen when I put my lappy with his one together,

and I found

"eh~ 1 white 1 black huh? Lai compare xia"

haha~ mine is 2 years old lappy edi~

=) overall still look nice right? haha

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx*Ignore me*xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

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\Simple working experience sharing/

This time is pic-sharing about how am I going to assemble a PC.

This is a PC that customer pick from pricelist and I'm going to fix one for her.

This is not a tutorial~

So, if there is technician around here,

NO criticism, okay?

So I'm going to post with simple description and story,

without any details like instruction or method.

1st! we need material! Wash Pesticide away before use ! [haha, like cooking lesson] xD

List of materials:

mamaboard*lol! xD*

+

ram

+

processor

+

graphic card

+

casing

+

power supply

+

DVD drive

to create a basic needed pc.

Now. put mamaboard on somewhere u felt comfortable and easy to setup

Now, take the Processor + Ram + Graphics card out from the box~

Plug them into mamaboard~

And make it like this

▼

TADAA~ Is it ready to eat?

=( nope hunny, we haven't cook it.(LOL! I bet if there is any friend of mine around, they will shout at me with "Stop that crap la~ haiya~") HAHA xD

Now, Nurse, pass me the scissor and screw driver. :p

We need some "operation tool"

And there u go~

It's time to put the "mamaboard" into the pot(PC Casing) to cook~

xD

═╬═

And now what we left is just wire management + DVD drive + and opps~ I almost forgot that we need a Hard disk drive! xD *paiseh paiseh*

And this is how I make Sata Cable in to MAGGIE noodle shape to make it shorter since it is too long and shape it into MAGGIE noodle will be easier to manage xD

*BEFORE*

*Progressing*

*AFTER*

TADAA~~ Done~ it's served but yet you cant eat xD.

hahaha.

This machine only cost RM 1400+ with original windows together owh~ xD

Interested? Leave a message.

-----------------------------*Ignore me*----------------------------

Now, when it's almost time to get home.

One of my customer called and said that he is on the way to my working place and he need 2 laptops!

I was like screaming!

=D

haha, because he is a very kind uncle~

Let picture tells, I'm so tired typing right now~ hahaha

How does them look ?

Twins and Nice! Sleek and glossy dark design with my favorite flat keyboard style!

Interested?*Burst out laughing coz keep promoting business xD*

Come and I'll give u a good price =D

Or, leave a message. xD

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~*Ignore me*~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Does anyone noticed that I spamming the wall of facebook when the Japan vs Paraguay penalty kick momment?

Haha, after all the hard works, we went to one puchong cafe~

Order jor tasty non-halal food, eating, watching the nervous momment.

Delicious!!!!!!!!!!

Opps~ Cant wait until take picture oredy left these >"<>

Now, finally the working post episode 2 is finished !

xD

How's ma post and blog?

Share your idea!

Don't forget to click on any advertisement unit that u interested in my blog~

Don't worry, they are clean and without any harmware. =)

I guarantee~

Beware, new post will be coming soon,

there is too much picture to upload so I'll release this post 1st,

next post will be,

Friends =)

All visitor and followers~!

Guess what fella's~!

I'm moving home again~

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not a bad news thou~

I'm going to apply for streamyx which mean i can update my blog whenever I'm back from my job!

And that could really gave me the privacy to update and upload my picture whenever I want rather than typing my blog or thoughts in front of public~

I'm back soon and trust me, I got toooooo much picture and story to tell!

Everyday i just made some drafts to prevent from forgetting the story of the day!

=D Well, I'm not the best blogger but I do commit lots into it.

Jobs, times, ain't gonna stop me from blogging.

Keep my foot and finger moving.

Darky, is unstoppable! LOL :p

工作篇之|-第二个月-| (Part 1)又来咯~ 大家，还在吗？

我竟然成为我店里INTEL的代言人！

哈哈哈哈，哪一天刚好没整理头发，刚好INTEL 的dealer来了，要整理INTEL的布置，也顺便派了挂在lanyard上的 INTEL processor quick spec card.

然后叫我过来，跟这个quick spec card拍一张照代一代言。

哈哈，虽然拍得很丑，不过有种开心的感觉。

ｘＤ

这一片短短的一篇是五分钟完成的，工作篇之-第二个月-第二ｐａｒｔ即将来临！

Ta daa~

My birthday cake = A piece of sandwich that bought from 7-11 =)

This pc made me into madman ==...i cant take off the motherboard~!

Remember I shout out loud in the facebook status that mentioned I got a bad toothache?

I took this when I'm on the operation bed T.T

This sarawak kampua that made by a sifu at One Puchong Cafe, quite nice, I rate it for 80%~

Haha, felt like back to hometown whenever I put this in my mouth~

And yeah, I miss my home =(

Well I guess everybody must be wondering how suprise or how fabulous my birthday night is gonna be...In fact, I'm just working as usual...after moving and arranging those stock as last second post shown, my friend took a picture of me and our boss, and the end.

I couldn't say this is the worst birthday I ever had, well this might just a birthday that without anything happened.

But there is something that I really have to thank !

On my facebook wall, there is 127 peoples that blessed me with the word happy birthday on my facebook wall, well I don't have a birthday cake to enjoy when I'm having my birthday but these guys below brought the best thing that I ever had in a year!

I never thought that I could got so much birthday wishes, or I should say I don't even know that I deserve all of this...

I was like...SCREAMING!!!

=D

Thx everyone!!!

When I logged in my facebook few weeks ago and found the notifications from facebook is spamming my inbox with full of birthday wishes!

That is really shocking me!

Christine Dior 毓儿, Melinda Tiong, Candy Hua, LiQii Woo, CEci Lst, Ng Wai Tsin, Sim Krayz ,

Ray, Ck Chung Takeshi, Johnny Chia, Alex Low, 坂本 ＫＵＲＯ, Mark Tiong, LevEnt Siew,

Cui Wei, Alice Ting, Amanda Wong, Bruce Lingtg, Suresh Kumar Puspowanam, Steph Wei,

Emmy Lau, Gloria 'glo' Glovarch, NiCk Shim NiCk, Karen Lingling, Wei Jack, Hïï Çhåi Linġ,

KLIA LCCT, Fred Lau, Kevin Choon, Kaori Kwaiiko Hime-Doru, Tai Chieng, hui Jasmine,

Allen Tiong 凯, iм. Aииie, Shirley Yong,Carrie S Yew Yee, Jason Ling, 夏威, Byebye Jc,

Steve Heng, Eugene Jee, Jacky Yuan, Chen Fang Yun, Wan Yin Chen, Jenny Wong King Mui,

Ravin Kuku, Sharon Ling, 云上太阳 , Yiau Sii Sii, Stephen Kiu Sie Kiong , Natalie S'sp,

Fishyy Siew Sieng, Ling Qin Sheng , Amy W Hs, Jie Ling, Khoo Chea Yong ,Flower Vui,

Chin Wen Shin, Daiyan Lau, Rita 瑞塔, Jessie Chan, Sienna Wong Siew, Bro Dab Wea Peng,

David Wong, Jeffery Tang Sii Hui, Magtum Aen, Jstar Betty, Jung Ji HoonXz, Ayumi Hamasaki,

Kyle Yong Kia Siang, Lock Tim, Stevenliau Kuang Shing , Sean Koh GengSen, Yesung Madina,

Maggie Tu Yee Ling, Zsien Liong, Ho Jia Wei , Kristin Snyder, Melvin Wong, Desmond Lau,

Anna Siew, Sailer Hip, Reon Loh, Zhixin Ong, Ngu Heu Chew, Summer Jim, Alice Tang ,

Tai Momo, мichзllз Juиjuи, Lee Chee Keong, Samuel Jee, 洁公主, Natalie Ling , Xiao Jiong,

Jac Abby, Amanda Kelebit Nick Tan , Maq Maize, Rasheeqa Bahida, Abdul Rauf, Tze San,

Benson Wee, Mandy 囡囡, Syiha Buddin, Yanyu 欣逾,Hui Hui Vivian Lau, Vivien Wong,

Cindy Cheng Yi Xin, Theresa Ling , Evans Lee, Lim Hui Hui , Lee JingHuan 靖桓 ,

Winson Winson 輝, Bruch Ah Teck, Alex Lau.

Can't find your name? Tell me. ;p

Stay tuned. Brb in few days.

Random mood, random typing.

Today I have no mood at all to write about happy stuff =(

Story life will be continue after few days, let me just emo for a minute.

Okay? =|

Sometimes felt like outta my own mind.

Getting busy is not a bad thing at all.

Sometimes, busy helps to pass thru the bad moment just in a seconds...

But when you think the time for relax is here, then you will realize there is so much thing that you had missed. I don't want to give example since all of us can imagine =)

We, human are almost the copy of each other.

No matter how our times passed, no matter how hard you tried, no matter how do u feel for now, we, had a totally different and unique story to tell whenever we are looking at our history of life.

No doubt, I'm just a tiny sand when I'm standing in the crowd.

Few years ago, someone told me that my fate will not be just the way I thought it would be.

Well, that prophecy burns my spirit from the deep down in my heart.

I felt so excited, like I can touch the hope, and have it forever.

Still, when I'm losing my way,

and here I am to bow down to them again.

Whenever I'm losing my faith, I work harder on it,

I make myself tougher with all the way I could.

Yes, I'm not Genius.

But I do have a functional brain, and I'm satisfied.

Sometimes, regret is just too hard for me to learn a lesson.

What I mean is heart breaking won't made me a better person.

When I'm looking into mirror, I saw tears flowing on the face of another me,

thou I know I'm actually not that strong, yet I'm smiling to the crying me in the mirror and says,

come on, stop crying, this isn't that bad, wipe out your tears, get going, okay?

That's how I continue to smile everyday.

I'm not afraid of what had happened until today, thou it is terrible enough.

What am I worry is the things that I had planned so perfectly, goes into pieces.

Because, my heart beat for it.

Smile, Louis =)

生日 + 生活篇~

该从何说起呢？

太长我怕你们看得显，

太短又没意思。

算了，写完他吧。

=)

让大家久等真是不好意思了，由于我的工作时间真的是有一点长，

所以花时间在blog是有一些难度的。

不过还是会每一天写一点又一点，然后offday时就长篇大论~

哈哈。

好吧，从我的工作开始吧。

这些是我的同事~ 这间是我工作的地方 =)

不过搬了，图里的他们就是在搬着了~ 呵呵，货够多吗？

告诉你们，这只是一半，另一半在新店了~

搬到我们要生要死，搬了4个晚上 = =...

空空的？哈哈

这是我们的新店，很小对吧？

其实我后面还有一个储蓄室，就算加起来了还是小。= =

努力的我~LOL

哈哈点着一大堆networking device

累死了，接下来还得排货。T.T

有没有留意到，以上的新店照都是黑漆漆的？

哈哈就是这个东西烧掉了~

(>"<)害我得在黑暗里记录那个小到像蚂蚁一样的serial no.

点不完的货~ 忙忙忙，那时是凌晨2点了 T.T

注意图里左边的货~ 整齐吗？

哈哈那就是我同事a teh排的以下附送靓pose一张~！

LOL,帅到！！！哈哈哈！ 爆！！！

tadaaa~整齐吧！电源修理好了~！

接下来，就是压轴了！

图片说明一切！

知道什么叫sibeh重吗？

哈哈，因为这个counter不能拆开，所以只好十个人联手一起搬~

这个玻璃柜用了1个小时才搬完= =

接下来就是继续排货排货排货！

BEFORE

AFTER

TIRED TIRED TIRED!

没事放这么高干吗？

*SCREWING*SCREWING*

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由于internet太慢，upload了整天的照片，导致这篇不能顺利完成 =(

没有关系，明天就可以了~

盼大家多多期待！

你们的期待就是我的动力！

=)明天将会是工作以外的照片+生日感想！